Thursday, 9 October 2008

Seeing a future

I am feeling so revived and excited about the future. It has been gloomy year for me where I feel like I can only see a few feet in front of me and my past calls me more than my future. But some seeds have been planted over the last few months which have helped me see that there are possibilites for my future that I never would have considered before.

I had forgotten what it felt like to feel truly excited about the future and free to plan for that future. I believe that it is a work of God in my life to redeem my pain and create a new hope. And what I find so exciting is that it is so unexpected and that gives me faith that no matter what I think about my life and what I believe is possible or impossible, God is active and I can put my hope in Him.

I promise to be back with a less cryptic update soon.

But in the meantime it is springtime in more ways than one!

Tuesday, 7 October 2008

Avoidance techniques

I am a bit of a procrastinator. Hence me writing this now rather than doing marking...Any way, I often procrastinate for emotional reasons. It is not as if the thing I am avoiding it even very bad or hard, but for some reason I have an emotional block about it. I just don't want to go there. Sometimes I do the same thing to God. I avoid Him because I have some feelings and thoughts I just don't want to deal with or own up to and because I have the feeling that He might expect me to deal with them and challenge me on my thinking. But every time I push through the desire to avoid I am so pleasantly suprised but how God transforms the situation, often just be helping me see it in a different way or reminding me that I can trust Him. I have a list as long as my arm of things I am avoiding dealing with right now and I just need the courage to own up to them.

Thursday, 2 October 2008

It's the little things

The little things which get me through the day and give me those little moments of joy which remind me of what life is supposed to be about:
having a great conversation
a hot cup of tea
picking veges from the garden
cuddling my cat
noticing the weather
cooking our own food
making silly jokes that go on and on and make me hysterical
unexpected mail
reading the bible and praying
writing in my journal
escaping into a tv programme which reminds me of what I truly care about
sleeping in and not regretting using my time better
giving the house a good clean and surveying the results
changing seasons